#I don't know what's wrong

[foaming-sea]

I feel like there are two parts of me rn

One is spiralling sooo badly, on the ground sobbing, throwing hands in the air screaming at the sky, cursing the universe

The other one is watching from a distance. She can feel the distress, feel the despair. But she can't hear the sobs, or see the tears or understand what is being screamed

I know it doesn't make sense but thats how I feel. So out of touch but so fucked up at the same time.

[euclydya]

another dream about you again except of fucking course I don't remember what happened in it. all i remember was it was warm and comforting and. and it was good. it was a good dream. and i want to go back to. That. to when things are good because things aren't. things reallyy. fucking aren't but it's okay. it has to be

[akumanoken]

Current mood

[yvehattan]

Every day I invent new ways to be inconsolably sad

[natjennie]

that's so annoying :(

[theenemyod]

Making Magisterium fanart because to get help I have to explain what's wrong

[pc-98s]

my cat is peeing on my bed again and now i have no blankets because i haven't done the laundry from last time a few days ago yet. hell

[novellapink]

But it's Spring. I'm supposed to be happy...

[the-idiot-17]

⚠️/// mentions of self harm ///⚠️

Me normally: ugh I hate my scars, they're just a reminder of how I fucked up and there's no reason for them to be there cause I'm an over reacting piece of shit...

The litle voice in the back of my head: ...but what if we cut ourself again?

Me: No its not ok, it's not healthy, and we already have a hard enough time hiding one arm

Also me: ooooh but you know you wanna, you like how it feelsss, you like how it punishes us, you like the taste the smell and the sight of blood, you know you wanna just do a little stabby stab mmm?

Me: No shut up, if anyone sees them they'll just think I'm doing it for attention

Also me: oh but you love the way the cuts look on your skin, besides isn't it better to take out the anger on yourself than others? And I know you'd feel so much better afterwards

Me: I'm not gonna never again, no matter how much pain I think I'm in no matter how much my arm itches for the knife no matter how stupid I feel, never again

Also me: yah but that's what you said last time and look at where we are, the other scars weren't super visible but these are so whats the point in not adding more?

Me: just go fuck yourself

Also me: alright but if you need me I'll just be in the corner repeating myself, and if you ever need a relief member you keep a pair of scissors in your room...

[thetokentrans]

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[tenaciousmoneymuffinzine]

How do you pick up the pieces of your heart when someone scattered them so far you can't find them?

How do you open your heart to love again when, the last time that happened, he didn't just break your heart, he destroyed it. Ripped it up like it was nothing and threw it away.

How do you find yourself and your purpose after falling down the spiral of depression, anxiety, and the suicidal thoughts? How do you pull yourself out of the gutter and move on?

How do you force yourself to let go of and stop choosing somebody who isn't choosing you?

If I hate him, why can't I let go of him?

How do you get the help you need when nobody truly understands?

[scrawlingwithstyle]

Y'all I'm freaking out.

I'm mildly ill, but my heartrate hasn't gone below 100 since I woke up, & if I stand up, it's immediate tachycardia (120+) and dizziness.

By mildly ill, I mean a postnasal drip & a mild headache that went away with ibuprofen.

Also me freaking out is not helping my heart slow down.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Expertise can't help you here.

[sparrowlucero]

The greatest injustice ever faced is that I almost certainly started the still thriving "clown husbandry" tag on here, but any discussion about it (from a know your meme page to a youtube video with 500k views) says it's a joke of "unknown origin" or credited to this post, likely bouncing off of mine (which was actively circulating at the time with like 30k notes):

This is a tragedy for many reasons, most of all because it wasn't just an offhand joke but actually a direct response to some of the funniest online hate I ever got:

They're erasing the truest history of tumblr: its desperate need to seethe and argue over every obvious joke with more than 10 notes.

anyways here is the canonical pet clown. according to me

[starpaw0007]

Strip that stupid triangle

[po3tictrag3dy]

oh my god i fuckinh suck and i've built this entire new person to hide who i really am but who i really am is better than oh god THE BEATLES THE BEATLES THE BEATLES THE BEATLES